Oh, Yeah, It’s Monday
September 17, 2007
The posts have been light as of late for several reasons:
- I’m busy. So busy that I think of things to say, but when I sit down at the keyboard, I have something ELSE to do rightthissecond, and by the time I get back to the glowing screen, I have forgotten what I was going to say. That long slow slide into senility has begun, my friends.
- I’m angry. So many things lately have made me so mad, I don’t know what to say anymore about anything. I’m sure that whole menses thing this past week hasn’t helped my current frame of mind, but even today, on the last day of my period I am SO MAD I could scream. Actually, I just did.
- I’m tired. I love my job. I love the kids. I love the people I work with. What I don’t love? This nasty Florida heat. It starts early and only gets hotter as the day progresses (as only heat does, by the way). It’s hot, it’s nasty, and it saps me of my energy and desire to do anything but become one with my sofa and nap after school. I’m excited that we are dropping into the 80′s this week, and that’s sad.
- I’m frustrated. Too much to do and not enough time to do it in. Since the school seems to frown on kids coming to school naked, I have spent the past few weekends doing laundry so my family has clothes to wear. I have also made appointments and then forgotten what day they are on, thus not showing up. I hate when I’m on the receiving end of that, so I hate it even more when I’m the one DOING it.
- I’m angry, part 2. My niece’s boyfriend has decided to have a “mid-relationship” crisis 3 months into their relationship, and my heart goes out to her. My fist would like to go out to his face, but lucky for him I haven’t been out to the apartment they share. He lives another day, but only until I find out where they live. Then it’s on!!!
- I’m embarrassed. I scheduled a meeting with Spiff’s teachers several weeks ago. So what do I do? I miss the meeting. Completely. I realize it several hours later and am immediately apologetic. I more than anyone know how precious teacher’s time is, and I’m mortified that I made them adjust schedules and never showed up or called to cancel. In my defense I had no way to call once I realized it, and that day was crazy beyond belief. Regardless, I’m mortified and embarrassed. I also sent each teacher an apology email.
- I’m sad. Just when I think that things are improving in Scamp’s class, the teacher tells me he had a “difficult day” or I hear him say to his Nintendo DS “You make me VERY angry.” He’s doing much better, and I think she FINALLY understands that what he does is not intentional. It just breaks my heart that he says things like that based on what his teacher tells him when he doesn’t do what she would like him to do.
- I’m optimistic. Tomorrow is another day.
Posted by Shash @ 10:47 pm
September 18th, 2007 at 2:37 pm
Hi Shash,
What are you angry about? It sounds like we need to talk! Call me when you have a minute! Love you, La
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September 18th, 2007 at 8:59 pm
My heart goes out to you. Crazy days, a mind like a sieve and too much to do/not enough time? We should start a support group.
I find that a glass of wine, a good book, and locking myself in the bathroom (or closet, or wherever you can get a moment’s peace) works miracles.
Hope Tuesday is better!
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