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March 18, 2010

So like any good mother (blogger?) does after being gone for awhile, I have dusted off the equipment, upgraded the surroundings, and so here I am.

A lot has changed.

I still work in education, but I’m planning a return to school to get my own degree in Education. Next week I go find out how I can do that without eating from of a can of Pork and Beans for the remainder of my life.

I’m still a mom so that hasn’t changed. Phew.

I’m growing and learning and changing things about me. Some that needed to be changed, and some that I’m going to have to change due to circumstances. As the days progress some of these things get easier. Notice I didn’t say less painful, because WHOOO BOY, the pain. It’s harsh. But I suppose all of this is necessary. So I trudge onward. Now, I WILL take steps backward. It’s inevitable. But the primary momentum is forward. Always forward.

Even if I fall sometimes. Or often.

My life is changing. Who I am is changing. The life I have lead for sixteen years is changing. It doesn’t matter about the hows or the whys, because those things are not going to alter the outcome. The outcome will be the same.

I am in the process of getting divorced.

And that is why I have stepped back from blogging, and why I will be scarce for some more time. The details are not up for public consumption. Crazed Mommy is in Mama Bear mode. It is what it is, and while it isn’t sunshine and roses and rainbows, at some point there is hope we will at least see the sunshine, smell some roses, and enjoy a rainbow or two down the road.

I have hope for that, anyway. Time will tell.

So for now, I’m sifting through the wreckage, seeing what’s salvageable, holding close a few things to my heart, and preparing to Garage Sale the rest. The process in some ways is cathartic; and in others brutally, excruciatingly painful.

But necessary.

Very, very necessary.

So there it is.

I’m getting divorced.

and I think know I’m going to be okay.

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Posted by Shash @ 6:21 pm  

20 Responses to “At the tone, please leave a message…”

  1. hip_m0m Says:

    Hey beautiful lady! I was so excited to see that you’re back to blogging, but I was not expecting the news you had to share.

    Moving forward is the only way to go and I’m hoping you’ll reach out to those of us who have been down a similar path when you need to.

    And yes, you WILL be ok.
    *hugs*
    .-= hip_m0m´s last blog ..Dear Mom and Dad, I Forgive You =-.

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  2. moosh in indy. Says:

    You *are* going to be okay.

    Because you’re a brand of awesome not available in stores.

    I’ve got your back, and any other parts that need getting.

    I think we all do.

    xoxo

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  3. Justine Says:

    Hi Shash,
    Sorry, to hear that, but it sounds like it is on to a bright new chapter. Wishing you lots of support and virtual hugs.

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  4. Molly Says:

    Welcome back! and if you need ANYTHING, you know we’re here.

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  5. Suebob Says:

    Hi!

    Onward!
    .-= Suebob´s last blog ..10 things that should be illegal =-.

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  6. Janis @ Sneak Peek At Me Says:

    Glad to see you back. I missed you over @ 5minforSN. Sorry to hear about your personal trouble, but it is exactly that..your story. Just happy to see you will be coming back. ((hugs))

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  7. Hockeymandad Says:

    I was just wondering about you the other day. I’m very sorry to hear of this news, but I know you will be okay too. If you can survive working in our state’s education system AND be a mom, you can make it through anything.

    Summer’s coming too, they’ll be lots of rainbows to see nearly every late afternoon!
    .-= Hockeymandad´s last blog ..Suburbs Rocked =-.

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  8. Miss Britt Says:

    I’m so glad to see something from you.

    And yes, you WILL be OK.

    xo
    .-= Miss Britt´s last blog ..Why the Internet (or anything else in your adult life) is actually NOT “just like high school” =-.

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  9. La Primera (Lex) Says:

    Yes, you will be ok. Lean on those around you and those of us who have traveled through our own journeys. Divorce sucks hard. But what a triumphant feeling to come through the fire better than ever! Hugs and strength to you!!
    .-= La Primera (Lex)´s last blog ..check myself =-.

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  10. Avitable Says:

    You’ll be better than okay. You’ll be wonderful.
    .-= Avitable´s last blog ..Chat Roulette =-.

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  11. Will Says:

    In the end, we are all alright. No matter how difficult the road. Should you want to talk, so simply vent, you know how to get to me.

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  12. Karl Says:

    Aw, I hate hearing friends getting divorced. It’s a gutwrenching process. Very glad you’re taking care of you and yours, though. If you ever need to talk, I’m here.

    You should come down to Sebring for Sillybring April 24. Gonna be a handful of fun people here. Cissa, WhoStoleMyZen and her sister, Shannon (Bubblewench), Angel, me…maybe some others. Might go to Gatorama, do some karaoke that night, it’ll be a great time.
    .-= Karl´s last blog ..Stranded All Alone at the Gas Station of Love, and I Have to Use the Self Service Pumps =-.

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  13. Heather @ Domestic Extraordinaire Says:

    oh hon, I was wondering where you were. I am here for you if you need it and you are going to be okay.

    xo
    .-= Heather @ Domestic Extraordinaire´s last blog ..Flashback Friday-The Closet Edition =-.

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  14. Susan Payton Says:

    You WILL be ok bc we’re here to take care of you. Much love. Check in soon.

    S

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  15. Virginia Says:

    I just wanted to say that I am so sorry to hear about your news. If you ever want to talk just let us know. We will definatly be thinking about you!

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  16. Janet Says:

    I look forward to hearing of you education journey. What are your hopes and dreams? Maybe they are just not ready to be shared — that’s ok too.

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  17. Secret Agent Mama Says:

    We’re here for you. xoxo
    .-= Secret Agent Mama´s last blog ..Weekly Winners {The Easter Edition} =-.

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  18. Elizabeth @ Table for Five Says:

    I’m glad you’re back, but sorry to hear the news. I hope it helps to know that all of us are here to lean on any time you need it. Hugs.
    .-= Elizabeth @ Table for Five´s last blog ..Being A Mom – A Look Back =-.

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